I have been trying to write this post for over 2 weeks, and I’ve found it hard to put my thoughts into words. So bear with me, lotsa words coming your way. I am blown away and overwhelmed by the generosity, love, and kindness of my family and friends. I am completely humbled. When I began this process of raising support, I was nervous, intimidated, and skeptical. My original plan was to work hard and save harder so that I could pay my way in full for the race. There were a few reasons for this, but God has been sharing with me His mercy and grace the past few weeks so that I could grow in humility.
I want to rewind just a few months and share what God’s been showing me.
Back in January, I committed to the World Race. Right from the beginning, my plan was to work and save so I could pay for the race in full myself. I didn’t think of myself to be a worthy enough investment, I have a difficult time asking people for help, and the idea of fundraising in general has always been intimidating to me – especially a financial feat such as the race.
Within the first few weeks of submitting my deposit, I read articles, emails, and devotionals on the heart behind support raising and the deeper reasons. I don’t want to go into tons of details but it really hit me hard to realize that it’s written all over the Bible. To fear not, to ask and receive, to lean on your brothers and sisters…etc. Over just 2 short months, God has really done a 180 flip on my mentality. Raising support is so much more than fundraising…it’s about having a team. An army of people that are covering this ministry opportunity with protection and peace and whatever the Lord brings to their hearts. I wish I had realized earlier than now, but seeing the love of my family…everyone that has prayed for me, asked about my trip, donated, bought one of my photo prints, given me advice, etc…I have realized that God is 100% about the teamwork life.
God has shown me that committing to this race has nothing to do with me, and everything to do with Him. It’s all humility. Looking beyond my selfishness and what I believe about my worth, looking out to my community with the understanding in my own heart that God is a God of teamwork, and looking up, to the Lord, trusting in His strength and will. For if this is His will, He will continue making a way.
As I have been not-so-gracefully growing in humility, I have begun to see this opportunity as more than just a group of people ready to serve the nations. It is an army of individuals, already serving nations, and before I even launch I see it happening. In my church, family, friendships, etc. The Kingdom is already coming together, glorifying God, partnering in ministry and being a part of this Kingdom movement in the nations.
The world race journey doesn’t begin in August when we launch. It began a long while back. The people who are first to read this post, most likely are those people who are already supporting me prayerfully or financially. I don’t have words to really explain how thankful I am to see how God has shown up for me in a process I didn’t even fully trust when I started. I can’t say thank you enough to the people who have donated to my trip or have come up to me and taken the time to say they are supporting me with prayer. You incredible people of God have SHOWN UP. #ptl
So as I continue to move forward in this journey, but still have about 4 months until I launch, my goal is to show up like the Lord has in my life, and like so many of you have. We are in this together – we are all vessels. “Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it.” 1 Corinthians 12:27
You go girl! I’ll be praying and thinking of you. Keep posting.